Bettert than I used to be

Last Wednesday was so much fun...it was one of those days that made me think of my life and the changes that I have made to make it better. There I was on a school bus with kindergarteners, a bunch of them...LOL...and we were going on a field trip. It was 9:15 in the morning and the all the kids were bouncing everywhere and there was my little kid right there in the middle of it all. I kept looking at her because she looked so happy and why not? She has a wonderful life, a normal life, untouched by all the craziness that was before her. So I am sitting on this bus and I have this amazing guy sitting next to me, he is my guy and he went too and the day was so much fun.When it was over and we got back to the school the 3 of us headed to Starbucks, on the way there a song came on the radio that I have heard before but this time I really listened to it and with everything the day was and how I was feeling, it really got to me and actually made me cry which was so funny because I couldn't really stop it. 

I really have made a better life for myself and in turn I have created a place where Haley can grow up with all of the things that little kids deserve to have in their lives. I'm far from perfect, I still have so much to learn about all of this but today I knew without a doubt that I am better than I used to be. 
Here are the lyrics to that song I heard and the video too. Still making me cry. LOL 

The song is by the amazing Tim McGraw.....
 

I know how to hold a grudge
I can send a bridge up in smoke
And I can't count the people I've let down,
the hearts I've broke
You ain't gotta dig too deep
If you wanna find some dirt on me
I'm learning who you've been
Ain't who you've got to be
It's gonna be an uphill climb
honey I won't lie

I ain't no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be

I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground
I’ve got a few old habits left
But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get
Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust
But put some faith in me
And someday you’ll see
There’s a diamond under all this dust

I ain't no angel
I still got a few more dances with the devil
I’m cleaning up my act little by little
I’m getting there
I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see
I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get
But I’m better than I used to be